I have had 3 surgeries on my left foot in the last 14 months – all 3 due to totally difference injuries.  Needless to say, I have either been in a boot or walking in pain for most of this time.  As a result of this, I have found it very difficult to stand throughout the worship in our church services.  Until this last week – what was in my heart and spirit was greater than what was in my boot!

About 2 weeks ago, I was getting my nails done and getting a pedicure.  I took a book with me to read from a book club my church is doing online via Facebook.  As I stilled myself and began to read, it was like Superman opening his shirt – I had opened my spirit to receive from God through this book.  The truths of the book began to feed my spirit and I began to weep.  I had allowed God to bring a fresh awakening to my spirit.  I filled my mind with worship music and wept off and on the rest of that day.  Then I had nightmares that night and the next day – I knew the enemy was ticked off because I had humbled and stilled myself before God – enough for Him to begin to meet me.  I began to feel ALIVE in a fresh way.  You see, I love Christian books, but rarely am able to still myself to read and learn from them.  Sometimes, reading the Bible is even harder.  I reread one of my blogs from a couple of years ago called “When the Feelings Aren’t There”, and found great encouragement in being reminded that who God is and His love for me has nothing to do with feelings or emotions or lack of them.  So, with this new fire inside of me, I have begun pursuing God regardless of my feelings.

What God is doing in my heart is greater than what is in the boot!  In other words, one superseded the other and my behavior changed – I was able to follow the longings of my heart to worship regardless of the pain in my foot or the discomfort of the boot.  The behavior change is that now I am able to stand through all of the worship in a service.

I wonder if the same principle can apply in other areas of life.  Could my desire for God supersede my desire for other things (food, watching TV, wasting time, etc.) and cause other changes in my behavior?  What if I loved God more than sugar?  What if I chose to spend time getting to know Him rather than watching TV?  What if………  What would this look like in your life?